nothing is as it seems

The focus of my work in the last two years has been to explore and document my emotional landscape. I am inspired by and love the way art making can be used as a form of therapy to better understand the patterns and truths about our-selves. The landscape I have explored recently is to detail one’s desire when in midst of infatuation, illustrating a number of feelings that arise from being enamoured with someone.

To do so, I  visualised the felt sense, emotion and colour of the moments that were influenced by or shared with a person I was infatuated with. Being a romantic I decided to add an imaginary element, spots of light to highlight the surreal nature of what I felt. With these elements in mind I would create the shot. Photograph it. Edit. Print. Stab holes through the print. Rephotograph. Edit. Test print. As a personal exploration I found the process added to my understanding of my experience of infatuation. 

I realised what I feel and do when infatuated mirrors the influence of passion in my life. This how I am with my work life, my art and my relationships best described by Richard Silken as ‘Something’s not right about what I’m doing but I’m still doing it- living the worst parts, ruining myself. My inner life is a sheet of black glass. If I fell through the floor I would keep falling. The enormity of my desire disgusts me.’